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Shadow Lane: A Winchester Obsession
Master Post for Finding My Way Home Started With Finding You 
2nd-Jul-2008 07:43 am
Jared/Jensen 2

Artwork by gigglingkat  .
   
 
Title: Finding My Way Home Started With Finding You

Pairings/Characters: Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki, Christian Kane/Steve Carlson, Jeffery Dean Morgan, Sandra McCoy, Sherri & Gerald Padalecki, OCs, mentions of Chad Michael Murray, Megan Padalecki, Jeff Padalecki, Mackenzie Ackles, Donna Ackles, Mike Rosenbaum

Word Count: (total) 69,830

Rating: N/C-17

Genre: RPS AU

Warnings: Swearing, guy on guy sex, mention of rape (non graphic), talk of physical violence (non graphic) mention of attempted murder (non graphic)

Disclaimer: No one you recognize belongs to me nor do I claim that the way they are portrayed in this fic is anywhere near the truth.

Summary: Scott McCoy is searching for who he is, literally.  Seven months ago he woke up from a coma with no memory as to who he is or how he ended up in the hospital in the first place.  Not entirely content at the ranch he has taken refuge at but not exactly ready to face an unknown past he`s convinced himself to stay until he has more money saved up.  That is until the sleepwalking and the dreams start then he knows he has to start searching for the life he`s forgotten.

Jensen Ackles-Padalecki has never accepted (despite a murder confession from Chad Michael Murray) that his husband Jared is dead. He won’t believe it until he sees Jared’s body. Once the phone calls from Jared begin, he has renewed hope of finding him even if his friends refuse to believe that Jared is alive.

Both of them start searching for a life missing but when they find each other can they find what’s lost? 

Author's Notes 1: This is my fic for the 2008 spn_j2_bigbang.
                            2:  realscape and  fanofsuper were kind enough to beta this for me and I owe them lots and lots for not only killing my run on sentences and fixing my punctuation but for putting up with my craziness.  Admittedly I fiddled after they were done wading through it so any mistakes you come across are utterly mine and mine alone.  Also a second big thanks to fanofsuper for helping with the summary for this.
                            3:  gigglingkat did the awesome artwork with exception of the J2 kissing minimap which belongs to dismal_healer.  Please wander over to tv_boyfriends</lj> lj community and let her know how great she is. 
                            4. Some towns in this fic are real, some not so much.

                            
Part 1 I Part 2 I Part 3 I Part 4 I Part 5 I Part 6 I Part 7 I Part 8 I Part 9 I Epilogue I Soundtrack | Timestamp - Thoughts and Nighttime Feedings | Timestamp - Teddy Bears Are Not For Pussies | Timestamp - They Aren't Kids Anymore But...  


 Artwork by  gigglingkat</lj>with special thanks to dismal_healer</lj> for her J2 kissing minap.
 
 
 
Comments 
2nd-Jul-2008 02:50 pm (UTC)
Waou, that sounds so good... I can't wait to read it. It will be perfect for my two week Internet-less vacations. I'm gonna copy-paste it to Word for then.

The artwork is beautiful, BTW.
2nd-Jul-2008 03:17 pm (UTC)
I did the same thing with some long stories when I went on vacation. *g*

gigglingkat did an awesome job with the artwork. Hopefully she'll get her post up soon so people can tell her.

Hope you like it.

Have a great vacation!
2nd-Jul-2008 03:38 pm (UTC)
This sounds SO GOOD. Can't wait to read tonight! :D:D
3rd-Jul-2008 03:26 pm (UTC)
Well I hope it's worth the read.

And I owe you and Wendy a great big thanks for putting Big Bang together cause in all honesty this story probably never would have been finished without it.
2nd-Jul-2008 06:59 pm (UTC)
An interesting summary. Bookmarking so that I can read it at the weekend when I can chill out and read it properly.
3rd-Jul-2008 03:27 pm (UTC)
*bows down to you* You have the patience of a saint. I on the other hand do not - at least when it comes to stories I want to read. Probably explains why I don't write as much as I should. *g*

Hope it's worth the read.
2nd-Jul-2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
OMG!!! I am so excited to see this up today. I have been waiting to read this since I read the summary in May. Happy Dances here in Michigan. Off to read........
3rd-Jul-2008 03:50 pm (UTC)
Hope it lives up to expectations.
2nd-Jul-2008 11:34 pm (UTC)
I just love this story.

All of it. The writing, the art and fact that it is finished because I honestly think I wouldn't have survived waiting for new chapters.

3rd-Jul-2008 03:38 pm (UTC)
Well thank you.

I'm glad you enjoyed it. And the kudos for the awesome artwork goes to gigglingkat. Not only did she create 3 great minimaps but she put up with me too. *g*

I know what you mean about not wanting to wait for updates. I love long stories but hate waiting for the next chapter. 36 and I've got no patience when it comes to some things. It's a problem, I'm working on it.*g*

Thanks for reading and commenting.
3rd-Jul-2008 02:10 am (UTC)
not finished yet,but it totally captivated me!!!i think i'll need tissues for this
3rd-Jul-2008 03:39 pm (UTC)
*hands tissues* Umm sorry? *g*

Hope you enjoyed all of it.
3rd-Jul-2008 09:36 am (UTC)
oohhhhhhhhhh

I have it from 8dreamcatcher8!!!

I am so excited, this looks brilliant, thank you so much for writing!!!

I hate Chad already just from your summary!!

Fab artwork also!

Di x
3rd-Jul-2008 03:47 pm (UTC)
I hope you like it.

Kudos for the awesome artwork goes to gigglingkat. The minimaps still blow me away and I've had them for awhile.

I don't know what it is about Chad but he's so easy to write as the bad guy. Probably has something to do with him being such and idiot in real life. *g*
6th-Jul-2008 06:31 pm (UTC)
It was amazing. Incredible, so sweet, and broken, and hot. OMG! I felt in love with this BIG BIG fic. Congratulations!
6th-Jul-2008 11:40 pm (UTC)
Oh my goodness thank you for all the kind words.

I'm glad that you enjoyed it.

Thanks for reading and commenting.
12th-Jul-2008 07:55 pm (UTC)
Wow!!! What an amazing story. I saved it to my HD and you can be sure that I will re-read it again and again. I so totally loved this story. *hugs* This story gave me hours of pleasure and thrill and it really brought tears to my eyes.

The moment when Jared finally remembers everything (calling Jensen "Jenny") ... I was almost squeeing because it was so cute.

Thank you for sharing this story with us.
14th-Jul-2008 04:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you for all your kind words. I'm glad you enjoyed it so much.

And thank you for reading and commenting.
20th-Jul-2008 05:10 pm (UTC)
Okay, soo... At the beginning I didn't knwo what to think about your story but it seemed interesting and some friends spoke highly about it. I told you I'd read it in hospital and I'm so thankful I did. You really made the stay much better.

Well when I first read the summary 'the Bourne Identity' came to my mind. Don't ask me why because it was nothing like it.
the story ended up very interesting. I loved it. :)

The way you wrote about the characters thoughts and the way they met again. How they reacted...
I have to say that I expecially loved the way you wrote about Jared's "big light". I'm aware that you probably have no idea what I meant but I lack words how to really describe it when Jared suddenly knew everything again.

I might have laughed a little when Jared attacked Jensen in the kitchen and Jensen was so confused but hardly managed to resist... :)

I mean not that it wasn't hot because it was. lol

Anyway it was really worth reading and very well written as far as I can tell although there might be some grammatical errors in it but since I'm not a native speaker. I liked it and the main reason why I'm rambling so much...

I want to thank you for sharing with us.

I'm so glad that they are back together and getting another child and if you ask me? why haven't you written another 20,000 words`? lol. you should stop when it's nicest or at least people say so....

As I said before I had some 'issues' (wrong word) when I first started but when i first started I just couldn't stop reading anymore.

I looovved it. :D

Have you written more j2 that you could recommend?

Thanks again
21st-Jul-2008 04:59 pm (UTC)
Actually when you mentioned the "the Bourne Identity" I could see it from the summary...though I swear I didn't even think of it at the time. But you mentioning it, now I can see it. *g*

I laughed when you mentioned the "big light" because I got a mental picture of a cartoon Jared with a big light bulb blinking above his head. I have two little kids and cartoons are now a regular thing in my house. So yes I understood or at least I think I do.

There could be errors, if so I apologize. I did have two betas go through it but I'm terribly bad for fiddling with things after betas get done with my stuff so who knows?

*cough* Actually there is a smaller part being written because it was requested by fanofsuper to do with after the second baby comes home. It should be done soon(ish). But it's not going to be 20,000 words I don't care what my muse thinks! *g*

I'm happy that you enjoyed it and it made your hospital stay go by quicker.

Just click the jensen/jared tag and it will take you to all my J2 fics. Ummm the "teaching jensen verse" has 3 stories so far, the first one is humor and then it spirals off into a D/S theme. Totally fanofsuper's fault, girl's got a pointy stick! *g* and the other is actually from a verse written by annella but I don't think you have to be familar with it to understand what I wrote. But if you're interested the community for her verse is J2 Prep School. You have to go back through the archives to get to the beginning of the verse.

Anyway thanks for reading and commenting and again I'm glad you enjoyed it.

5th-Aug-2008 11:22 am (UTC)
I think I already told you how much I loved this, but I just wanted to state it once more.
Listen, I'm mod for a Lj community that simplify the format of SPN fanfics so that people can read them on their cellphones, ipods or palms...would you give me your permission of doing so with this fic? It's incredible and I really think it deserves to reach as many people as possible.
5th-Aug-2008 02:20 pm (UTC)
Actually we're both mods for Supernaturalefic that doesn't mean you can't simplify it if you want. Truth be told better you then me since, quite honestly, after spending months writing it I really don't want to have to deal with this particular fic right now.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with how it came out but I know me, if I start I'll find fifty things wrong with it. *g*
27th-Aug-2008 09:38 pm (UTC)
Hi, I know this is a long shot but do you by any chance have a single file copy of your story that you'd be willing to email me at amalthia at gmail.com? Your story looks really interesting to read!
27th-Aug-2008 09:59 pm (UTC)
Sent.
28th-Sep-2008 04:07 pm (UTC)
I copied this entire thing to word and put it on my phone, and I started reading it at work yesterday. I'm glad I didn't just decide to bookmark it and use the internet on my phone to read it, cause reception sucks ass in that building. And let me tell you, once I stared reading this, I couldn't stop. I'm a little amazed that I've still got a job. This is just amazing.
29th-Sep-2008 03:09 pm (UTC)
Thanks, glad you enjoyed.

I've read fics at work when I was supposed to be, you know, working too. Just don't get caught. *g*

Thanks for reading and commenting.
15th-Feb-2009 05:23 am (UTC)
OMG I just spent the evening reading this and it ROCKED!!!!! Well done from top to bottom.

NOW....timestamps are awesome....but can we beg for another??? I would ADORE to see one with jared dealing with jensen's panic attacks.....you KNOW there would have to be some major fallout.

Please???? begging???? cookies????
17th-Feb-2009 01:24 pm (UTC)
Thanks, glad you enjoyed it.


I'll put it on the list, I just can't promise it will be done quickly. :)
16th-Jan-2010 08:52 am (UTC)
this is amazing and i think i'm going to have to read it over and over again until my yes fall out.. just, god. breathless. i love this so much :) i kind of want to marry you right now
13th-Mar-2010 02:49 pm (UTC)
Sorry, I just got a slew of notifications in my email from livejournal and this was one of them...gotta love lj notifications. *sigh*

Aww thanks sweetie.

I'm glad you enjoyed it so much.

I kind of want to marry you right now Lol.
12th-May-2010 09:42 pm (UTC)
So I finally managed to read this...in between all my studying...and you did not dissapoint! I'm rushing off to read the timestamps right now! *HUGS*
18th-Aug-2010 10:05 am (UTC)
i adored the fic possible to have a pdf with the timestamps

thanks.
22nd-Mar-2011 01:28 pm (UTC)
Wow, I'm sorry I've just now found out this story. But better late than never right?

I just loved every line that I've read .. You have done really a great story! You really did a great job!

I could felt in every sentence the Jensen's pain and his anguish for not having his "real" husband back . Jared was there but the same time he wasn't .. It's a different kind of death .. Very, very good ..

And I could feel the despair and frustration from Jared by not being able or not know what was really going on .. That unknown prison where he was, it was something suffocating to read ... I really loved ..

Of course, I loved every one of timestamps, it's a pity you didn't write more .. I would love to read more about this story, their story .. I'm in love with your fic, and it'll be in my delicious ..

Again congrats, and sorry for grammatical errors, but English is not my native language...

Brazilian hugs
23rd-Mar-2011 12:15 am (UTC)
Thanks!

Oh no worries about your English, English is my first language and there are days that that could be called into question. ;)

There was/is another timestamp planned, it's just a matter of getting back to it.

And thank you for reading and commenting.
20th-Aug-2011 10:23 am (UTC)
Hi :) Is it possible to get the single file sent (including timestamps??)
I'd be very grateful :)
Email is tracie5080@aol.com

Many Thanks

Tracie
20th-Aug-2011 02:54 pm (UTC)
Can do but as I'm on vacation right now I don't have my back up files from my external. Give me until mid-day Monday (Aug. 22) and I'll email it to you. Do you want pdf or word doc?
15th-Sep-2011 02:06 am (UTC)
Oh these are such lovely banners/pics/art! Can't wait to read the fic too!
30th-Nov-2011 12:02 am (UTC)
I adore this fic and I was wondering if you could send me a copy of it in pdf format. My email is deanshot1@yahoo.ie. I really hope you don't mind in sending it to me. I don't know if you got the original comment but I thought I'd come back to this one and ask would you mind sending me a copy of the pdf to the email address above or treasa4@hotmail.com
I would really love it if you could as I love this story so much, one of my all time favs.
*hugs*

Edited at 2012-09-27 10:45 pm (UTC)
20th-Aug-2012 08:50 pm (UTC)
my god I am so lucky to have found this story!!!
I would like very much to have the pdf file including the timestamps.
is it possible?
tell me so I'll send you my mail address.
kisses!
29th-Aug-2013 06:21 pm (UTC)
Hey :)
Any chance you have it all in a single file?
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